102 lbs of soft, the choice, and moved again

Tropical paradise is ripe with a landscape rich in black hair, smiles……...and rice.  I can smile too with the understanding that my past was full of near misses and what would have surely been awful mistakes.  The love train truly is elusive for good reason and it is not for me to question her reasoning except to look back and say thank you for not stopping for every Tonya, 

Sarah and Sally.  Yearning for tickets on the love train is nothing compared to wanting off the bad relationship bus when your partner is psycho.  True that…..

You think you’ve got trouble?  You want intractable agony too???  Now I cant take credit here.

Well he was cold, tired, and hungry
Came a beggin' for bread
The lady took him in and fed him breakfast in bed

It wasn't me indeed……….well….maybe it was. Hehe….. big smile. Walang Pala mahal. Naintindihan mo?  Masaya niyon ako…

I had a discussion with my daughter who said “all the decisions you have made have brought you here”.

Really????…I don’t think this was ALL my decision.  I do like ownership of ones mistakes….. and I have my share to confess…..…but I think I would have chosen to live in Monaco, be fed grapes and wine by Asians wearing wicked weasels if I had a choice.  Truth is ……not everything is a choice….or id have chosen the Lamborghini. 

My marriage was….. on its best day…….a nightmare.  Yeah I chose to get married ……it was a mistake.  Did I choose to get out of it?  With pleasure…….after her second affair.  That I knew about….there were more for sure I have been told.

Fan……..tastic

Red light:  then?  Young and foolish

Green light: now?  Wiser, smarter, faster

Kamalian ko……siempre….  But mistakes are great teachers too……my heart is still intact……

Sidebar: I miss football……  My health though could not be better..i have lost a ton of football weight and am rock hard……

For my daughter:   I wish things had been different between us…… to err is human ….….to forgive…..is……. something I hope you will one day understand.

For my son:  keep your chin up….. follow your dads words …..learn inner and outer strength…. You will need both. 

For you:  The love train may not stop for you

For me:  The love train may not stop for me.

I met a German girl in England
Who was goin' to school in France
And we danced the Mississippi at an Alpha Cappa dance
It wasn't me

Bring it…….. dream hard……love big….be desireless …give away kindness…..

POST SCRIPT: No...Im not where you think....hehe