whatcha ona bout girl??

whatcha ona bout girl??
A retrospective on the inner workings of love, flying pancakes, mensa disasters, dandelion cookies, number bending, super salt, bubblegum oysters, chicken spit, crystal kidneys, guerilla carrots, polychromatic tofu, paraphysics, tender vigilanties, black sand, phillastine placebos, wood soup, buttered shuttlecocks, apostrophe training, fish whips, bleeding speed, plastic fantastic lobster telephones, venus drug rehab, clowns on fire, kiosks on a leash, marshmello overcoats, bottled light, fried blood, unbridled hyperthyroidism, folding wine, amygdula tickling, fainting in coils, hamburgers for the apocalypse, plastic memes, and conjugal fritters.....well...the love parts true

Saturday, December 21, 2013

the antwone fisher of men, the olive garden college fund, and broken milk

Been thinking alot lately....  nothing over the top.....news wise....    im good.
big smile.   works a bit of a stress but im not really working....lol...... though dinner dishes need cleanin right???   i can live with that.....as should we all.  we have to eat and things that get dirty have to be cleaned at some point.......or thrown away.  At any rate make peace with your decision. Surely my exwifes attorney will agree.  Send her a bill.
I was watching the movie antwone fisher lately and a great line came up.  "nobody gonna take anything away from me anymore".  True that.  Be forced to give up everything.... and you know what it means to be the strongest man alive.
I have been that man.

I am that man.

I have a line of my own.

If i treat you well .....respond in kind..........cut me off and you get nothing from me.  If you forget my resolve  i can remind you when you ask again.
People dont always get what they deserve.  Not always have i been fair.  I know you understand.  I can admit things dont always go to plan.  I dont get it right my fair share.
But i want my kids to know that i never wanted them to be without me.  I never wanted to be without them.  Some doors never close but i have no regrets not looking out my window to see that your not there.  Thats your choice.

Oh..... that wasnt your choice?

I truely was not aware that the blame game had losers....and winners. You feelin me?  Spin and doctor dont really fit well.......
whose engineering was it exactly then?
Be careful where you throw those stones.

Oh.....im too late.

well........
No use crying over spilt milk.  and...you cant put milk back together after you break it.
Think I'll have some water instead.  I understand people in hell want some.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh. satisfaction....
In fact im satisfied with that.  really.  Big smile.  Getting divorced was one of the happiest days of my life.  Sorry kids......ask your mom where your college money is....... or better yet you should have bought  some stock in olive garden....ah the memories  i paid for .....but didnt get.
What my kids dont understand is that this was NOT what I had planned.  When a woman wants a divorce because she doesnt want to be married to a man..she does NOT want him around her children.  In front of them she says "they need their dad".  Its a lie.  when a woman wants the kids she does everything in the shadows to keep him from having a good relationship with them...because she might lose them if they have a strong relationship with dad......and she cant have THAT.  So she smiles and says  " its not me ..its the courts". So the kids automatically get brainwashed that dad doesnt love or want them.  All the while she just shakes her head like its dads fault hes not here and shes sorry hes such a loser...while its all been engineered ......without the kids knowledge
Do you know what i got for 12 thousand dollars/ year??

nothing

zero

Oh...wait...i got a few kids who hate me .......and think i dont care about them.

Plan B

I have a new family......thats fair...my exwife has a new family......

I deserve the same.

So i have a new family.

I have my dreams just as you.  And they live again and i sleep well.  If you cant sleep you cannot come with my dreams... and i will not pay for your sleeping pills.  Its a dream i had to wait for...Im sorry you werent there jordan and jennings.
I have a new plan.
If you set yourself on fire........burn.  Wheres my glass of water?  Im thirsty.
Someone call 921!!!! hurry!!!!!!   uhhhm .... 991? Oh crap...... is it..... 1800 i told you so?
 ...big smile......
kids .....call me sometime........Call me antwone........ fisher.
If you detect some sarcasm and anger.....kudos ......your normal.......

so am I

Redeemed.  Stronger smarter faster.  ...and believe it or not....happier, unemployeed and no longer a us citizen....... with a different name.  Boy the the things we do for love.   Iniibig kita mahal ko....isang bago kapamilia...masaya ako sa yo at mga anak mo.
A softer wiser heart?  Yeah ........  big smile.   Gots me that too.  Being shit on makes you appreciate roses.  Sorry the preceeding sounds like lemons....its followed by a good wash of tequila....i assure you. Truth is... i sent two roses this week...   Im happy....so is she.   hehehe
And if i hear one more stupid dumb fuck who missed the point say "youre bitter ....you need to get over it".....please do the right thing and .......send my kids to college  and  make sure theres extra for the exwifes husband to have the chicken ceasar salad.........every month...... for the next 21 years.... or you can  go  to  jail.  You choose.  You have a choice..... right????  Oh and dont be upset.  Why would you be upset about losing your children?  You shouldnt get upset about that..."just let it go."......  "just get another attorney".

Truely my life has been happy...... followed by disapointments aplenty.  But it has taken all that  to recognize what makes life so great....... so sweet.....precious.....and happiness???   Its mine now.  And you cant take it from me.  You can only join me.  sa iyo pa na ginib mahal ko.  masaya nandito ka.

POSTSCRIPT: would i welcome a call from my kids......ofcourse.  I miss them very much and wish they would allow me to call.  A warm gesture is always appreciated.  However if your going to send me a text out of the blue asking me to pay for 40 thousand dollars of college .......  i would rather have heard the warm gesture in there .......somewhere.  If not i think an answer to the question "Mom what did you do with all the money dad gave you?" better come first.
POSTSCRIPT DEUX:  The roses were a smash......  The love train doesnt get much concern lately....because everything is fine...  big smile.....108 lbs of fire.  Im happy.    The roses are a hit.  and nights are good.  Now the bad news we will be separatated for a month for reasons i cant express.....and then we will see.....  mmmmmm
POSTSCRIPT TROIX:  Some people dont ever want peace...no matter how hard you try to offer it.  I wish my children the best.  I am truly at a loss...and my heart cant break any more than it has but its amazing that they get so much pleasure from treating me like shit.   Everytime....E V E R Y T I M E we have contact.   OK......find someone else to punish...  I quit.  I remember one time my exwife said " i dont care about your financial problems".

Really?

Ah the the circle of life.

All I can say is

"I dont care about your financial problems".

3 comments:

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Jeux de danse

me said...

thanks...... long story...every word true..... :)

SweetCherry said...

Reading this blog makes me realize there is so much more to know about you.. I hope you will find the love you deserve.... Hope for the best.. Happy Birthday Paul!! Age doesn't make who you are but the lessons learned in gaining that number..