whatcha ona bout girl??

whatcha ona bout girl??
A retrospective on the inner workings of love, flying pancakes, mensa disasters, dandelion cookies, number bending, super salt, bubblegum oysters, chicken spit, crystal kidneys, guerilla carrots, polychromatic tofu, paraphysics, tender vigilanties, black sand, phillastine placebos, wood soup, buttered shuttlecocks, apostrophe training, fish whips, bleeding speed, plastic fantastic lobster telephones, venus drug rehab, clowns on fire, kiosks on a leash, marshmello overcoats, bottled light, fried blood, unbridled hyperthyroidism, folding wine, amygdula tickling, fainting in coils, hamburgers for the apocalypse, plastic memes, and conjugal fritters.....well...the love parts true

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Retraining, building love town, and a field of dreams


Yeah dude….. its done….its up…….she got it up….. its perfect….really strong…tall…. Yeah it works……really well ……that wall is NOT going anywhere…… it looks good…. She should be happy with that….yeah dude….no WAY anybody’s getting past THAT…….been workin on it for years…..NOBODYS getting IN….or….. OUT of this place. Guaranteed.
Ok…. So ….I get the call….. “I want love”…… ok…that’s a good start……”but when someone gets close the walls go up” …sigh…....so…..you don’t want love????.... Oh … I see….. you want love but your not available…….hmmmm… maybe I DON’T see….Now I can’t take credit here.

Told myself I'd get by without love
Drownin' my sorrows
Avoiding tomorrows
Kind of felt that I just had enough

If you build it…they will come……WRONG….. field of dreams indeed….if you build it……they will ………surely be scared off. I wish I could say baseball was my thing…sorry…...FOOTBALL it is then…..
Its preseason and I have taken some time off from lower body training…. So… I need ….retraining. My upperbody is good to go dude but working legs ……is NOT fun.
Ive been avoiding this and avoiding this as long as I dared… ..so I started back last week. IM…….sore……. this is good….really……A few weeks from now and the power will come back. My body WILL remember. Its that first few weeks that’s a killer. Incidentally…… ladies…..Get your man to work his lower body…..not cardio….. I mean leg iron….…seriously. His butt, legs and lower back are the largest muscles in the body…if you see a guy with developed legs…….his endorphin/testosterone level are THROUGH the roof. Wink Wink.
One thing is certain……… I won’t play well unless I get off ma butt and start leg pressing. I can’t have it both ways. Wow, such great information Trey……ya gonna say sumpin worthwhile??? I know I can’t have walls up and find love…….thats common sense….. Duh……Well…sometimes people miss the obvious…. Myself included. Lately my bloggy friend girls have been saying some nice things about me and I want you to know I appreciate that…...its nice to be heard!!!!….….small smile….but I do my best to look in the mirror and sometimes I need a bit of retraining….
So….we talk a while and its obvious…….she wants her cake and she wants to eat it too…..she wants love but she’s got the walls up…..fan….tastic…….no deal….no dice…. The walls keep you IN and everyone else OUT……What if you met a guy and his walls were up? ….…well??......If youre unavailable then don’t think you’re gonna go far in love town…..
Ive had my heart stomped…….. yeah dude …….serious pain. My own words to another were that she had to

“trash the memory of true love instead of finding a way to mend what you had accidentally messed up. From there you shot it, cut it up, beat it, ran over it, set it on fire, and then blew it up.”

And here I am
I'm back on my feet again

Bring it………..bring the demolition crew. Building a wall is EASY in love town. The hard thing is to keep one from going up. But that’s the ONLY way love will come back to you. You have to be available. You have to open your heart.. Its not a debate. I see good people in 24 hour self preservation mode. En…....joy. You build a wall…. And you will live there by yourself. You build a wall…….and YOU have to take it down. Yeah I need a bit of retraining myself…….it is the offseason……..…..But I plan on playing again. DOWN………...SET…………

27 comments:

Gray said...

You are so right, his legs are well built and he is through the roof.;) *sighs*


I don't do walls. I'll give myself 100% so that later I won't have any regrets. Sometimes love hurts but damn it is worth it.

Violet said...

Yep, I'm with Gray. Like they say about the lottery - you have to play to win. I'm here to play, not to watch the game on tv.

Right now, as a matter of fact, my heart HURTS...but it still feels better than feeling nothing.

Just telling it like it is said...

send me your URL so I can put you on my page...darn girl

Diane said...

We all need re-training sometimes, darlin'.

I thought once I get over that wall. But it was too high to scale. I'll never do that again. Too hard... hurts too much when you fall back to the hard ground (on the wrong side of the wall).

"Seattle" Heather said...

Trey-I'm confoosed...who is the girl your walling with? This isn't the chick that's with someone already is it? IS IT?! Treeeey??? Tell Seattle Heather the Truth.

Walls are hard to avoid when you've had your heart stomped on. I know because I've been there. It's hard to not think that all mean are cheating scum bags. Especially when you gave your all in the relationship. Yeah...walls...fack...bet mine must look like the Great Wall of China on some days.

"Seattle" Heather said...

UGH! insert *MEN* THANK YOU! No sleep here.

Shelly Rayedeane said...

Good for you! I'm doing my first marathon in February. I just started running again after a year of being a lazy butt.

f1trey said...

@ Gray- I dont do walls....hehehehe thats good!

@ Violet- Didnt know you were in a rut ..is this a new guy??? not the tall one I hope....

f1trey said...

@ Diane- Yeah I need that spiritual swift kick to the head fairly often!! I think people just build them without realizing that they cant get out ......its just self defense....

@ Heather- NO its not that girl!! Yeah I would be messed up do take on the girl that was shackin up with that other guy AND she had walls!! If I did that you would so knock me upside my lump head...... no this a girl from my past...shes emotionally unavailable.......the quote is from an email i sent to another girl i used to date.

f1trey said...

@ Shelly- I took some time off from working lower body after the season was over...i just wanted a break....i still hit the gym for three hours every day...just workin upper body.....now im getting my lower body strength back.......its coming....glad your gettin back to it too!!

"Seattle" Heather said...

Oh Trey! Gold Stars for you! Good job!
I was super sleepy yesterday! Not much was making sense!
You spend three hours in the gym each day? Wow! No wonder you have arms that look like that! :) I wish I could stand being in the gym that long! ha ha

April said...

1. Football is the BEST sport in the whole entire world. There is nothing better to do on Sundays than watching some football and eating some wings. I love going to my local sports bar and watching all of the games. I used to blog about football, but most of my readers are women who are not into the sport as much as I am.

2. Why are there so many men who hate doing legs? Back when I worked out often and did kick boxing, I used to always hear men complain about doing legs. As a result you'd see all these dudes who were top heavy, having scrawny legs that didn't match their top halves. I loved working my legs because I always felt so powerful. I had some strong ass quads, like rocks! In high school I leg pressed 290. (yeah, I'm totally bragging)

3. Walls are excuses. Period. Yeah getting hurt sucks but you learn and grow from your past. Learn what you want, how you want it, what to look out for, what you like and don't like. Be strong and smart, not scared and reclusive and hide behind a wall. Walls are for weak scaredy cats. (sorry if I offended anyone with that comment, but I speak the truf!)

4. And YEAH we say nice things about you. We can't get in your pants by saying mean things, now can we?? HAHA!!

f1trey said...

@ April 1 You rock
2 you rock
3 YOU ROCK!
4 Its cool when a girl "understands" football...... :) Im NOT a couch potato and its ok if i dont see every game ... its all good..but playin is something BAD!!! I mean good..
I think guys just dont do legs cause you cant see him as much ...I know I used to not work em but football changed that....
Keepin those walls from goin up is hard for some and i have the feeling they get built before people know whats going on...then they cant figure out how to get em down

f1trey said...

@ April- LOL You have a BF---- you cant get in ma pants! but dont let that keep ya from tryin!!! :)

ViolentLove said...

the walls that protect us will eventually imprison us...

that's the thing isnt it? those walls are generally there for a reason... we get hurt/abused when we are young and not emotionally able to sort thru it all so we build away as a way to survive... the problem is that when we mature we are supposed to break down the walls and deal with the issues, however, most never do...

walls suck. give me openness or go away.

f1trey said...

@ Heather- dancin a little jig.....yeah! yeah yeah...stops for a second......dances again.....hehehehe i got a gold star! I got a gold star!!!

Darlin ive seen the pictures, ya dont need to be in the gym...... :)

f1trey said...

@ Violent- yeah it really is a double edged sword.....you make them to protect yourself and then find out youre all alone in there!!!!!! When I see someone whos emotionally unavailable I just keep a gettin it.....

"Seattle" Heather said...

HA HA Trey...if I didn't work out hun I wouldn't look like that. But thanks for the confidence booster!

tattytiara said...

You speak the truth, my friend. It's better to be hurt than isolated. I'll take scar tissue over atrophy any day.

f1trey said...

@ Tatty- Agreed....its worth it..... chicks like guys with scars anyway!! LOL

MaLou Silverman said...

Cool....I have to nag Dave to do the lower body exercises.

It's hard to open one's heart, you're bound to get hurt again. also many times one is not aware the walls are up. You see, some of us don't analyze things, we just feel :(

It's nice to see a guy who works on improving not only the outside but also the inside. Happy weekend :)

f1trey said...

@ MaLou- nice...... youre right ..some dont analyze they just feel...... i guess balance is best..but thats easier said than done....and yeah you really got my point....some dont realize the walls are up....... thats bad...i mena if you dont even realize you have built a wall...we got trouble....

Shelly Rayedeane said...

Nice addition of the eye picture btw.

My website should be back up and running by the 16th. I'm playing around with my blog and I've been thinking about going dot.com.

I hope you have a lovely week!

Just telling it like it is said...

I'm with Grey..It sometimes hurts but then it you build a wall you miss out on all the fun along the way!!!

Bombshell BLISS said...

I've read several of your posts...must follow now. Too right on!

f1trey said...

@ Shelly- thank you! the lighting was a bit weird and my cell phone isnt the best .......

@ Just- Im glad to hear that...... cant win ifn ya dont play......

@ Bomb- cool...... theres always room for more! :) Dotn read too many posts... Im more often wrong about things!! LOL

The Invisible Seductress said...

I am adopting you as my cyber BF. Please accept this offer as being let down on a blog would really hurt me. And I am a delicate flower (cough). Wink...I love reading your stories,, you always make me smile!! So many good things ahead for you!!!